So especially late at night i love to write poetry, i don’t write them alot but every now and then i put one together! So here ya go!
She never thought there would come a day.
Where the pain and hate would make her say.
I want to make it better and as she prays.
The sorrow inside grew deeper and gray.
She thought to herself and became afraid.
All the things of her past threw shade.
But the more she kept on the more it won’t fade.
She thought how could someone hate.
Love could mean so much will someone relate?
But she kept on thinking untill her mind became numb.
She began to think her feelings were dumb.
She tossed and turned at night thinking of a solution.
She wished her mind would have a execution.
Maybe she thought if she didn’t think so much who she would be.
She realized how her mind would be more free.
But then she wouldn’t be who she was.
And all these things make her special because.
Those who think deeply feel and love to.
Because the mind and heart they stick like glue.
Thinking deeply you realize facts.
But not just any old life hacks.
There the facts of life that get us through.
The tough times, the happiness and all thats true.
Sometimes we will die inside and hurt more then other times.
But if we don’t hurt are happiness wouldn’t be as worth as many dimes.
We fall and we get back up.
We doubt ourselves then we find more luck.
We get our hearts broken and we ache.
Then we smile again and we pick up our pace.
We realize who loves us and who really doesn’t
When the life was good and when it really wasn’t.
The pain that hurts ends up being great.
Because those that suffer where made for fate.
So if she didn’t think deep would she know what she knows?
Would her heart be as strong and would her soul really grow?
So her heart turned from gray to a solid red.
Her soul and mind no longer bled.
She was at peace with her heart and her mind.
They were what fed the soul, because they intertwined.
Ok, so if you have nominated me for a challenge, thanks for supporting my blog and chooseing me for the award! I can’t do challenges because i don’t have the right plug in downloaded on my computer to tag people. IT SUCKS. Ill download the plug in soon and thanks so much anyways. I haven’t been posting as much because ive been busy with school beginning to start, getting school supplies, and going over all the classes with my mom i’m taking. Anyways, i wanted to post about Gods creation because i’m really going to miss the sunny days and sunsets. I think sometimes we get so caught up in vaycays and awesome summer days ect it’s easy to forget to take a step back and realize God created great things for us to enjoy, and without his beautiful creation our summers would probably suck. It’s amazing that all these things he created are so great. As they were created not for us but for him, theres so much of Gods beauty in it. And i think its important of finding the beauty in everyday, so even when you feel down remember to look around and realize all the things he made and how great they all are. I hope everyones summer was great and i hope it ends well as the school year starts back.
16 For by him were all things created, that are in heaven, and that are in earth, visible and invisible, whether they be thrones, or dominions, or principalities, or powers, all things were created by him, and for him.
Loving Gods creation is one way we can glorify him!
Theres so much more to it then taking pictures of the sky, as he made the earth in only 7 days. Thanking God for what he has made i think is important and makes him happy, its so easy to get caught up in things, we tend to not think about the things we should thank him for.
1 Thessalonians 5:18 In everything give thanks for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.
Okay i use to have a huge problem with what i’m about to say. Literally when i was younger things that were said to me i took so wrong. Simple teases that were only mean’t to be playful. Well we can agree people can be rude and mean, but there were things that were said to me at times that got to me that shouldn’t have because i was only taking them wrong. Deep down i would wonder why they said what they said or what they had mean’t. When seriously nothing should have bothered me and it could of been halarious if i would of let it but nooo i took it wrong. I tend to over think alot anyway but this is something ive really had to pray about and now i don’t get so offensive and i laugh at things. I’m more sarcastic then i use to be in a good way and i am able to laugh more with people. But i had to grow into that, because most teasing that isn’t harmful (even though there is a type that is) comes from going to school and ive always been homeschooled so theres things i wasn’t use to. But lots of things that are said can be taken the wrong way, so i think its important to pray and ask God to help us think on the things that are true and not get caught up in our own ways of thinking. Like lets say as an example if someone is talking to someone about something important and that person promises they won’t tell anyone, and that person that gave the promise has shown nothing but loyalty, but the person shareing still doesn’t trust that person to not tell, but that person has never broken trust. It doesn’t make much sense. I know there is a such thing as trust issues, but sometimes even when we lay that aside and let God take control of that we can still get caught up and over think to much on what is said to us or promised, or simple things. We end up getting discouraged and it can make things so much more complicated. But when we pray to God and ask him to help us think the way we should, we wouldn’t take things wrong that are said to us so much and we wouldn’t switch things around in our heads. I know alot in my posts i say praying helps, but memorizing Gods word and setting are focus on him helps with alot of problems, but prayer i believe is what helps of course, but also makes those things easier. Sometimes we just don’t know whats true and whats not and we don’t know what to think. Out of no where in situations in life its so easy to get confused, so as we follow him we should ask him to clear are thinking to make us less stressed, and more able to trust others regardless of are passed relationships and trust him.
Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise think on these things.
Also teasing i do think there is a line, i’m only shareing that ive looked into harmless teasing and joking before. I think this verse has helped me througout being a teenager because its so easy to get confused and i tend let my mind wonder. But then i stop and think wow none of what im thinking is actually true. So i hope whatever is on your mind thats worrying you, or if you believe your overthinking something small, that you can find relief in him that he can take care of it. He is able to tell us what is true and help us think the right ways, no matter the situation. P.S: i know with others things can get ugly, and theres so much more then what i mentioned that could cause overthinking, are minds tend to race in horrible difficulties, but God is working even when we don’t feel like it. He is there and he will work it out!
It can hurt when someone insults us. Maybe insulted us for our interests,clothes or looks. Maybe this person makes others feel terrible by picking out flaws, or made you feel small for something that you did they didn’t like. Whether its someone you know, or a complete stranger, being judged can hurt and hurtful things that are said to us can make us feel upset for along time, and its almost like what that person said to us at the time, is written in our heads permanently. Some people judge, but it’s okay because if God is for us? then who can be against us?
Romans 8:31 What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us?
Knowing God is on my side is comforting as i’ve struggled with acceptance from others before and sometimes now. I use to have so many thoughts in my head like what does that person think of me if i do that, or i wonder if this person thought this or that was dumb. Small things that people didn’t accept about me made me feel small, but it came to me finally, and i realized i’m not who others say i am, or whatever they think of me, i’m who God says i am and how he made me. So thats okay if people don’t like something and It’s okay to be judged. As i feel like sometimes in our lives maybe God lets us feel judged or ashamed, even embarrassed, just so he can be the one to make us feel loved again.
Even though it is wrong for people to judge or think mean things, God can handle it, “if God is for me, who can be against me?” He has our back. But in all honesty, who cares what people think If were happy with ourselves through Christ and his word. Easier said then it not bothering us because of some of our insecurity, and because were human and we have feelings. As much as mean words can hurt, i think thats why its so important to know who we our in Christ and how we have to be careful not to forget how important we our in his eyes. Even though it hurts when someone criticizes us, especially when what is said to us hits home. But remember God knows how it feels, because the Lord gets his feelings hurt to, because he loves us so much, sinful thoughts and actions of his children don’t make him happy, even though God is so great to be forgiving of our sin as we fail to not sin, because we were born with a sinful flesh that Gods grace and forgiveness covers. God knows how everything we feel feels, including hurt feelings. He can make every insecurity go away through prayer and time with him, and simple as asking him to take the insecurity away.
The LORD hath appeared of old unto me, saying, Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love, therefore with lovingkindness have I drawn thee.
While other people only see our actions and hear our words, but won’t ever know everything about the deepest part of our hearts. I love remembering that God does, like what we want to say when we don’t speak it, to where our hearts lay when our focus is on Him and when it isn’t, and as imperfect as that is, he still loves us…
And i think thats so much more then being judged by man, i think its way more important to be loved by a God that looks past every flaw and sees us as perfect when we aren’t. So while you remember God loves you, be yourself no matter what people say or think, and God will handle the rest. God loves you more then anyone ever could in a life time.
Even when it doesn’t seem like it, look up to God and ask him. God how can i find happiness in such a difficult time?
Is it even possible? At times i haven’t thought so, and didn’t look to him and asked him how am i even okay? I wasn’t fine at that time, and at the moment i didn’t want to be happy as i was to busy wallowing in being immature about my small worries and sadness. While i was selfish knowing other people have bigger problems. We can find happiness in such difficult places if we ask God for joy, and ive failed to do that a lot and then i wonder why i’m unhappy. The Bible says if we ask the Lord and if it is his will we will receive. And of course it’s Gods will for us to have joy in him. Theres no other way to have true joy in our hearts then praising him. There was this one time through my year of being 14, I was always upset, always worried about something, stressing twenty four seven, i cried a lot and battled lots of anxiety, sometimes still do. There wasn’t any other reason for the things i faced except that i wasn’t turning to God for my stress. My sister K went to college that year (i’m the youngest) and i was with my parents at home with nothing really ever to talk about. I still didn’t turn to God and was being very dumb. Whether it was a fight with a friend, or just having a bad day i was upset so much more that year then i can count. This was way before i made it a daily routine to spend time with God. The less i went to him and the less i prayed the more miserable i was. I couldn’t even really get through school. I needed help, but never got the real help that was gonna make me happy. I temporarily got help though, by texting friends, and hoping to make the best of the day through my own power not Gods power, so that obviously wasn’t my fix. When we try to be in control our selves anxiety floods in our lives like a 5 week rain storm that just ended and our back yards are flooded and we can’t drive because the streets still have rain water. I tried controlling my issues with my friends myself, i kept myself awake at night wondering what to do. Wondering how to fix certain things when all along God was like yo what are you doing i’m right here. Come to me. Have you ever tried to temporarily fix something? There’s solution after solution of fixes out there for anxiety and depression, like what we eat or spend our time doing but i know what fixed all my crazy issues and all haha. It was God that could only make it better for me. I probably have gone a year before without true happiness because of not trusting the Lord. But i find happiness again when i count my blessings despite who’s hurt me, or what goes on, when i look to him it’s okay again. Because there’s joy and peace in his promises and comfort praying knowing he’s listening. And no matter how many promises man has broken God keeps his promises. So hold on to his promises and have peace in them. Whatever it is God has in his hands. One of Gods promises is Philippians 4:19 But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus. If we obey God in our lives and serve him he gives us the things we need, and takes care of us, which in itself is amazing, this is something that has given me a peace of mind, it reminds me that if hes strong enough to give me what i need, then why wouldn’t he take care of everything else also. Another promise by God is Psalms 37:4 – Delight thyself also in the LORD, and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart. Meaning if we give God the glory and make him the center of our hearts he will give us our hearts desire, as long as are desires honor the Lord. I love that verse because it shows me that God cares so much about me, that he takes care about what my heart longs for. Not the last promise, but the last i’m going to share is Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. Which means if we love the Lord, (which is done by learning more about him and giving him praise) that the things we fret or worry over, and the things that fall apart, work together for good because he takes care of them. Find peace and joy in his promises, trust him! Have a great day!
When we get hurt by someone, it sucks while getting over it. Maybe what happened to you by someone hurt so deeply that you don’t believe you can move passed it. It hurts to be lied to, broken promises happen, back stabbing, but God is so much more then what has happened to us. We aren’t what has happened to us, we are who God made us to be. This is something i still from time to time have trouble with, but i have to remember God wanted me to learn from what happened, not remain hurt. And at times thats hard, because i get selfish and think i don’t deserve whatever had happend, that person is mean, or whatever else my mind jumps to. But God forgives us, so why shouldn’t i forgive that person if God always forgives me? God can heal us, we may remain with scars, but thats what shows were strong and can move past what we go through with his help. So don’t feel stuck, remember God is there with you and knows how you feel.
Revelation 21:4 And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes, and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain, for the former things are passed away.
Smiling is powerful. Smileing through pain, can be a cover up, that’s powerful in its self. But look on the bright side, isn’t it great how we have the ability to maybe be going through something so harsh but still are living the life by God still getting us through it. When i have a bad day, i try my best to be thankful, it can be so so hard, so i pray for my attitude, and thank God for the day. Because looseing gratitude, I know is just going to discourage me even more. No not all the time do i look to the Lord and pray when I’m upset. I should, but i fall apart, we all fall apart, we’re human. Smiling through difficult times, isn’t a must, it can be used as a tool. As the devil wants us discouraged, smiling shows him “No God’s got this.” Smiling is a way when we think about it, to praise God for his goodness while hurting, and helps us not to loose faith. It sucks and hurts to smile when we are in pain. But it works, it’s a way of keeping faith, it’s a way of not giving up. Praising God in the storm when were going through something is important, because we can’t loose our faith, it’ll will be okay, don’t give up.
Psalm 71:14 But I will hope continually, and will yet praise thee more and more.
The world has so many lies to offer, lies like we have to be a certain size or height to be pretty, to what makeup brands we use. Judgements vioced from the world and even certain songs that make us feel insecure. No one is perfect. And the world out there craves profection. God never makes mistakes, we ourselves aren’t perfect but we were made by a perfect God. So how could anything about us possibly need changing as his word says in Psalm 139:14? I will praise thee, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made, marvellous are thy works, and that my soul knoweth right well.
That verse comes into play at so many for myself, this world can be so discouraging. Part of the world does things a certain way and God does things His way. And when we place are eyes on something other then Christ, like social media. It’s easy to get caught up in what is advertised to us, “body goals”relationship “goals” hair “goals” but when those things become our “goals” enstead of God. It’s so easy to feel insecure in everything we do, to what we wear,say, and act. But God sees us as flawless, because we were made in his image. Genises 1:27 So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him, male and female created he them. So when i feel insicure because of the world or social media I pray about my insecuritys and ask the Lord to help me see myself through his eyes. The world has very high standards but remember that we are created in his image the way he wanted, never feel the need to change that image because of something the world tells us. All of God’s children are of him enstead of the world. Don’t listen to the box social media or the world tries to put you in. Where ever you may find lies infront of you, remember you were created by God, not the world. ❤
Romans 12:2 And be not conformed to this world but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.
Feeling alone in a crowded room is a feeling i can’t explain, it isn’t fun and ive felt it before. Maybe It’s the feeling of having lots of people, but still feeling alone. Some are afraid of being alone, and I’m sometimes that person. Some get depressed over the fact of being alone, some that don’t have anyone to lean on or listen to problems and cry with. In some piont in all our lives we battle loneliness and we feel hopeless and disconnected to the world. That’s when we have that “I would like to die in a hole feeling” When i feel lonely i have to sit back and think God is my person, he loves me more then anyone? He listens to my problems, loves me unconditionally and anwers my prayers and provides for me. The Lord sustains us, whether it’s depression, loneliness, anxiety, or just being hurt. He strengthens us, he can take care of you and make it better and at the time loves you. Never lose hope of feeling okay again because there’s always hope in Him. I fail to loose Faith, but I have to remember that when i go to him that he knows best for me and strengthens.
Isaiah 41:10 Fear thou not for I am with thee, be not dismayed, for I am thy God, I will strengthen thee, yea, I will help thee, yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.